A couple of weeks ago I put out a wish list. One of my wishes was a sign (any sign) that things were going to get better for me. Christmas is 4 weeks away, but it seems that already my wishes are coming true!
Looking back on Friday night's success I now know THAT was my sign. I just didn't recognise it at first. I was so busy looking for something like a job offer or a declaration of devotion, I didn't realise that the "sign" that I was so desperately looking for was right in front of me the entire time. (Typical eh?).
The fact that I was able to stop thinking about my own misery for a change and instead focus on something new instead, was the sign.
That I made a tangible and positive contribution towards planning an event that was going to help not so much me, but a lot of very deserving folk, that was the sign.
Yes, I still don't have a job and things are getting to be rather dire in the money corner; yes, I'm still hurt over the mess that is my personal life and my little heart is far from healed. But perhaps that is a sign as well. Perhaps it means that it is time to pack up and leave. All this time I've been fighting against this. I kept telling myself that if I stayed and got a job, my life would be turned around and I'd have new (and happier) memories of my time in G Town.
In a way, that's just what happened when I took on responsibilities connected to organizing the Ball. For the past 2 months, I've been too busy to mope around and grieve for things lacking in my life. I seem to have taken all of that pent up spirit and poured it into making this event a success. And now, with early estimates of profits showing at around £35,000 I can truly say that I have not just a great, but a TERRIFIC memory of my time here.
One wish down. Will the rest come true?
4 comments:
maybe only the important ones will come true. i'd take this over fuzzy slippers any day of the week.
well done, you!
£35,000!!! That's amazing! Please don't let the job 'thing' or temporary lack thereof, get you down. Something will come up! Have you ever considered events planning as a career? Seems like you'd be good at it! Wynie :)
@ Laurie - ah, there speaks a wise women!
@ Wynie - I've applied to all SORTS of jobs. Apparently my spectacular self doesn't shine through to the selection teams
I know it's corny, but it is better to have love and lost then never to have love at all. I'd rather be the one hurting then not hurting...or even understanding why one was hurting...now that would be sad.
PP
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